Chapter 8 - TWENTY-TWO MONTHS
Twenty-two months changed all of us.
I returned to nursing school.
The first week nearly killed me.
Not literally.
It only felt that way.
I had forgotten pharmacology equations.
My clinical shoes hurt.
Most students were younger than me.
One twenty-year-old called me “ma’am.”
I considered violence.
Then remembered I was training to heal people.
Sofia thought that was hilarious.
She was ten by then.
Her asthma stabilized after consistent specialist care.
Her panic attacks became less frequent.
She still hated sweet medicine.
Nobody argued.
She lived with Nico’s sister, Francesca, while he was away, but spent most weekends with me in the apartment Nico had legally leased for my employment years earlier.
I insisted on paying part of the rent after I returned to school.
Nico objected by letter.
I ignored him.
He learned.
Prison letters from Nico were strange.
At first, short.
Sofia says you failed a quiz.
I wrote back:
82% IS NOT FAILING.
He responded:
In my world, 82% loyalty gets people fired.
I wrote:
Your old world was stupid.
Eventually his letters changed.
He wrote about Alessia.
Not romantically to hurt me.
Honestly.
How they met.
How they fought.
How guilty he felt for surviving a system that killed her.
He wrote about Roman.
About rage.
About waking at night wanting to undo every decision.
I wrote about Daniel.
My father had completed treatment and found work at a warehouse outside Peoria.
He sent me fifty dollars once.
I returned it.
Then he sent a birthday card with nothing inside.
That meant more.
I did not know whether we would ever become father and daughter again.
But we stopped being debtor and creditor.
That was something.
When Nico came home, there was no crowd.
No convoy.
No mob reunion.
Sofia and I waited outside the federal facility in an ordinary black SUV.
He walked through the gate carrying one duffel bag.
Sofia ran.
Nico dropped the bag.
She hit him so hard he stepped backward.
He held her.
Then looked at me over her shoulder.
Everything changed in that look.
Twenty-two months.
Letters.
Fear.
Distance.
I walked closer.
“Hi.”
“Hi.”
“That was emotional.”
“Don’t start.”
“You cried.”
“Sofia attacked me.”
She shouted from his chest:
“I hugged you!”
“Violently.”
I laughed.
Then he looked at me.
“Can I?”
I knew what he meant.
I nodded.
He hugged me.
Not like someone claiming something.
Like someone asking with his whole body even after the answer had been given.
We did not kiss.
Not then.
It mattered too much.
Nico returned to legitimate life slowly.
His remaining companies had survived.
Construction.
Restaurants.
Property management.
A freight logistics firm that passed enough federal audits to make him complain constantly about paperwork.
He attended therapy.
Publicly, he called it “consulting.”
Sofia exposed him immediately.
“Dad has feelings doctor Tuesday.”
He threatened to remove dessert.
She reminded him her therapist opposed punitive food rules.
He had created a monster.
A healthy one.
I graduated the following spring.
Nico sat in the audience beside Sofia.
When my name was announced—
Clara Hart, Bachelor of Science in Nursing
Sofia screamed.
Nico stood.
Not metaphorically.
Actually stood.
For the first time in my life, seeing Nico Vitali stand seemed shocking because he looked completely unguarded.
Proud.
I became a pediatric nurse at Lurie Children’s.
My choice.
Nico did not buy the hospital.
I made him promise.
Our relationship changed after graduation.
Slowly.
Coffee became dates.
Dates became weekends.
One evening, we returned to the Vitali estate for Sofia’s twelfth birthday.
The ballroom had been repaired years earlier.
For a long time, Sofia refused to use it.
This year she chose to.
Small party.
White dress again.
Her decision.
Before cake, she looked at me.
“You nervous?”
“Yes.”
“Me too.”
We held hands.
Nico stood on her other side.
Twelve candles.
No bullets.
No broken glass.
Just singing.
When the flames went out, Sofia opened her eyes.
“See?”
“What?”
“Nothing happened.”
I understood.
The absence of disaster can feel like a miracle when fear has trained you to expect one.
Later, after everyone left, Nico found me near the windows.
“You saved her here.”
I shook my head.
“No.”
“You did.”
“I protected her for five seconds.”
“That was enough.”
“Nico.”
He looked at me.
“I don’t want our story to begin with me bleeding.”
His expression changed.
“Where does it begin?”
I smiled.
“Your office.”
“When you called me disgusting?”
“Yes.”
“That was memorable.”
“You deserved it.”
“Probably.”
He moved closer.
“I love you.”
No warning.
No dramatic preparation.
Just words.
I stared.
His expression tightened.
“You’re supposed to respond.”
“I’m enjoying this.”
“What?”
“Watching Chicago’s most feared man panic.”
“I am not panicking.”
“You absolutely are.”
Then I touched his face.
“I love you too.”
He kissed me.
Softly.
The ballroom where I had nearly died became the room where nothing terrible happened.
That mattered.
But one piece remained unfinished.
Daniel.
My father wrote asking to see me.
Not for money.
Not because he was sick.
Because he wanted to apologize in person.
I almost refused.
Then Sofia said:
“You tell me scary things get smaller when we look at them.”
I stared.
“Using my advice against me is rude.”
“Dad does it.”
Of course.
So I met Daniel.
Public diner.
No Nico.
No guards.
My choice.
Dad looked older.
He brought a folder.
Inside were bank statements.
He had been setting aside small amounts from every paycheck.
Not for me.
For a gambling recovery fund helping families replace education savings lost to addiction.
“I can’t pay you back.”
“No.”
“I know.”
He swallowed.
“But maybe I can stop doing what I always did.”
“What?”
“Pretending being sorry is the same as repairing something.”
That sounded like Nico.
Or maybe responsibility always sounded similar.
I did not forgive him completely that day.
I did hug him before leaving.
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